Entry Two.

I prefer using Myspace Blog. But in this case. I feel this might be more appropriate.
Over the past few days, ive noticed something. Its strange to think about it. Yet again I find myself wanting too. I might talk about it later. Perhaps not.

Im quite glad, actually more than glad. To be we aware of my feelings towards Neil. It feels fucking fantastic, to know that people no longer think the sun shines from his arse. I can't even explain the relief and the sense of happiness coming from it. One day however, I know I will read back a this, and realise. Today was the day you learned. The day I learned to forget about those moments that have had such an impact. Forget the laughter, forget his mind, forget the times I felt at ease and close. Foregt the sex. Haha, I think we all know this will be interesting. But, if making the decision for happiness or sex is so difficult. What type of person am I?

God. Im vile.

On a lighter note. I have had reasons to smile this week. Not that I am willing to share all.
Im pissed off however, at my hair. I can not be bothered with it. Its fucking huge. Oh dear. at least Im not bald. Now let me tell you, that would be a sight. Dishy.

I want to blab on about why I am happy. But I really dont want to come across as an arsehole. God. I wish I wasn't bothered too mcuh by what others thought of me. :

Oh the cleverness.